“If you bungle raising your children, I don’t think whatever else you do well matters very much.”
Last night, as I heard the rustling of papers, the jumbling of items being tossed around- I had a bad feeling. I knew that in a few moments, the agita would set in and I would either join Christopher on his mission to find something or at the very least experience his frustration
I know that it is unrealistic to have happiness under my roof one hundred percent of the time. However, I do aim for a calm and steadfast environment. I promote harmony and good will daily as it is my natural disposition. Im blessed in that my children are generally happy people.
This was going to be one of them as I irritated him more with my line of questioning.
It’s not realistic but someone how I think it is my way of making up to my children the fact that their father is not local.
Im doing the best I possibly can raising them completely alone. One day, when they are parents they will understand the meaning and depth of my commitment to them. They will understand the challenges that I face and the love that I feel for them.
They will understand why at times Im silent as they are frustrated.
It is a practice which is strengthening their ability and confidence in themselves. One day they will comprehend all of my actions- this understanding only comes with being a parent. xo